Ain't thinkin about you..(but actually I am haha)

This is the song that is getting me through right now...Man, it would be awesome to be a guy. Seriously. They have it so fucking easy. Anyways, this is the Bow Wow version I'm posting cuz it's the one with a film clip but I actually prefer the original Chris Brown version (they've switched the verses)...they need to make a girl remix for real haha

Intro:]
Yea (On Tonight)
It's Like I Can't Let You Go (On Tonight)
But I Got To (On Tonight)
I'm a Change It Up A Lil Bit, I'm a Do It Like This

[Verse: Chris Brown]
We Been Together For A Minute
Now It Feels Funny To Be Doing Something Different
But It's All Good, Me And You Finished
She Gotta Ball Player, But A Nxgga Ain't Tripping
And I Ain't Saying That He Don't Love You
But I Don't Think He Love You Like I Do
But It's Okay, It's Alright
My Blackberry Filled With A Whole Bunch Of Women
Wasting Time, Steady Tryna Get You Back
Get You Back In My Life
Yea You Don't Care, You Don't Care
It Used To Be You That I Like But I'm a Do What I Like
Tonight, I'm Goin Get Tipsy
Over Twenty One, All The Girls Have Fun
And Watch The Ladies Jump On Me

[Chorus:]
I'm Not Looking For Love, Cause She's Gone
So Tell All The Girls That The Bottles On Us
Get Your Drink On
I Just Wanna Have A Good Time And Keep You Off My Mind
Find A Lil Shawty I Like
Girl When I'm Up In The Club, Really Turnt Up
I Ain't Goin Think About You (Na Na Na Na)
(Aye Aye Aye) Ain't Thinking About You Tonight (Night Night Night)

[Verse: Bow Wow]
You Got The Wrong One, If You Think I Ain't Gonna Go Out
You Used To Be The Only Girl A Nxgga Would Think About
I Gotta Couple Of Girls On Call, I'm a Bring Em Out
A Magic City Stripper, Hunh, So This Is What It's All About
I'm The Club Doing My Two Steps
I Done Pulled About Eight Broads Already
I'm Just Getting My Feet Wet (Damn)
But I Ain't Even Knocking Your Style
See I Be Here All Day Tryna Count How Many Girls Want Bow
Yea I See You On The Blogs With Your Dude And All That
But Little Do You Know, You Making Yourself Look Wack
If Dude Gotta Problem, Better Tell Him To Fall Back
I'm Blowing Real Big In VIP, Yea That Loud Pack
Shxt It's Me And Chris In Here, So You Know It's Real Thick In Here
Better Cuff Your Girl Because Your Bxtch In Here
Tryna See How Many I Can Fit In My Lambo
I Never Go Raw, Stay Strapped Like Rambo

[Chorus:]
I'm Not Looking For Love, Cause She's Gone
So Tell All The Girls That The Bottles On Us
Get Your Drink On
I Just Wanna Have A Good Time And Keep You Off My Mind
Find A Lil Shawty I Like
Girl When I'm Up In The Club, Really Turnt Up
I Ain't Goin Think About You (Na Na Na Na)
(Aye Aye Aye) Ain't Thinking About You Tonight (Night Night Night)

CELEBRATE!!

Yeah, I'm young, not broke and not deformed...so it's time to CELEBRATE AND APPRECIATE!!

Fuck this moping around shit...I can't change the past, and dwelling within it is not conducive to my health (although if you ever want to lose 3 kilos in less than a week then get your heart broken, it totally works but it's not recommended...kinda like the lemon detox diet)

Today I celebrate being alive, not being a starving ethiopian, having amazing friends and family who love me for being me.

I'm not perfect...but I do deserve to have someone think I am one day.

x

Why...

Things don't make sense...if everything you thought couldn't be lost, is lost, and everything you thought was real turns out to be fake, how can we believe in anything anymore? I'm sick of hearing people saying "you're amazing, you deserve better"...If that was really true, why don't I deserve what I want? Like Brittany Murphy's infamous line from Clueless: "If I'm too good for him, then why aren't i with him?"

I just wanna sleep it all away...because being awake means I am exposed to too many reminders of times and experiences...I feel like I can't wear certain clothes, eat certain foods, go to certain places, without being reminded of him...

It's supposed to be the happiest time of the year...but the Christmas cheer I see everywhere is like a cruel joke. I have turned into the Christmas grinch.

Just tell me when it's over...

W.H. Auden

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

Ri-ri...

I love Rihanna again! One of my original posts was all anti-Rih but now that she has finally lost the whole emo "i'm a bad bitch but i'm still pissed/in love with Chris Brown" image, I'm with her again. Totally loving her new look and new attitude - it's fun, girly and happy as opposed to Rihanna circa 2009 where she was all about being emo, boyish and tough. Don't get me wrong, I liked her style back then but it was about time she reinvented herself again and lost the ABE (All Black Everything).

Anyways, I'm currently obsessed with the song, and even more so the VIDEO of Rih's latest track "Only Girl in the World" where we see her dancing free spiritedly within some of the most beautiful landscapes outside LA. It's freakin' amazing to watch, and the colours have been edited super cool-ly. Check it out below...and then peep a video from her dark days to see the difference time a new boyfriend who doesn't hit you makes!

Spookay spookay!

There are two holidays where you apparently get to dress up like a skank. One is Easter (who would have thought the death of Jesus would lead to chocolate, bunnies and consequently dressing up like Hugh Hefner's whores?!) and the other is Halloween. Now I know Halloween isn't a holiday in Australia so I have no idea why we bother celebrating it because frankly the only things I know about Halloween are from the movies, i.e. carved pumpkins, trick-or-treating, dressing up as anything scary. Also a really sucky movie starring Josh Hartnett where a dude in a hockey mask tries to kill people and then ends up getting killed himself, SEVERAL times (!), comes to mind...but I digress (btw apologies, I realise this blog is hard to read but my brain seems to work only in long-ass sentences and thoughts-in-brackets at the moment).

Anyways the point of this blog was to discuss Halloween which is coming up in two weeks. What the hell is Halloween all about? Do I even care? Well, we all know what happens when I have a question about nothing really important, e.g. "Is Bert Newton still alive?"; "What happened to Timmy from Passions?"; "How do u make burger patties?" - THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS GOOGLE. According to this amazing source, Halloween originates from Celtic festivals; the Celts believed that on this day, the border between the real world and the spirit world was at its "thinnest" consequently inhabitants of the real world needed to fend off the bad spirits while welcoming the good. The scary costumes were supposedly a way of blending in with the evil ghosts so that they wouldn't harm you.

Apart from the costumes, trick-or-treating is one of the main traditions of Halloween. This usually involves kids dressing up and going door-knocking, asking "TRICK OR TREAT?". Google says that "the word 'trick' refers to a (mostly idle) 'threat' to perform mischief on the homeowners or their property if no treat is given". Well isn't that lovely?


*KNOCK KNOCK*
opens door
"TRICK OR TREAT!!???"


Ok, what are you supposed to do? Say "trick"? That's just like saying, "Yeah kids, I want you to toilet paper my house and throw eggs at it! That would be delightful!" Obviously you are going to say "treat". But that's fucked up man. Is the spirit of Halloween really about going door-to-door threatening people?? Sure, the person threatening you may be 6 years old but that's not the point I say!! 


Anyways, I had a Halloween event at Envy recently so I had to put together an outfit for it. Originally I wanted to go with something scary since that's the tradition. But I realised that Halloween has turned into a fancy dress party, meaning you can pretty much wear anything as long as its a costume, scary or otherwise. Hence the skanks have another reason to come out and play. What I ended up with was an 'Evil Fairy' because I wanted to utilise the black tutu I've had sitting in my makeshift wardrobe for the last two years (one of those "I'll wear this one day" purchases). Peep some pics below!! Now I need another costume for the real Halloween on the 31st so it's time to get creative again...this time it's gotta be something SPOOKAY!! Any ideas?

There's someone for everyone ;)

WTF!!! CRAZY GOOD!

Soul.

“ People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so out of control that you have to transform your life… -Elizabeth Gilbert

Help.

Please God give me patience.

The one thing in the world that makes me crazy is trying to teach my mother how to use a computer. Even at this moment I am struggling to not find the nearest wall and blindly smash my head into it. It's little questions like: "How do you save a picture?" that make me wonder how anyone could ever be a teacher. How many times do I have to demonstrate 'right click, save as'?? It's not that bloody hard! I have absolutely no patience for these kind of things and I feel terrible because if I needed someone to teach me something, I would want that teacher to have some kind of patience with me...yet the only ounce of fortitude I can build up is demonstrated in a frustrated "OK FINE I'LL SHOW YOU" and then I get all huffy when Mum doesn't understand my 5 second blow-off instructions. I know it's not her fault that her generation is computer illiterate yet I still get driven up the wall by her twenty questions. All I ask is for some higher power out there to grant me some composure when dealing with my mother. She doesn't deserve all this agitation. One day I'm going to be an old woman and I only hope that I can have the patience to deal with my stupid children.

Doctor Evil.

Ok Dr Phil is a wanker. I feel like punching him in the face every time I watch an episode of his show because he is everything I despise in a person: condescending, chauvinistic, conservative and a know-it-all. On today's show, a woman asked, "Dr Phil, are you God?" - and I laughed because that is exactly how the good doctor presents himself. He claims to be the number one authority on anything and everything, not to mention he thinks he can predict the future by telling his guests how he KNOWS their lives will turn out if they choose a certain path. How about GFY. I feel sorry for his guests because a lot of the time he humiliates them in order to make his point and to make it worse, he has a whole audience of Dr Phil disciples to clap and cheer at his every word.

In the episode called "Race to the Altar", Dr Phil talks to a 47 year old woman and a 47 year old man about their ideas for marriage and children. Both say that they very much want marriage and children. But when Dr Phil asks them why they haven't settled down, he portrays the reasons for the man and the woman in very different ways. Apparently the woman has not found anyone because she is too "picky" while the reason that the man has not found anyone is because women are too "flaky" and "don't follow through" when they say they want to get married and have kids.

First, why is it that when a woman knows what she wants, she is immediately labelled as "picky"? One minute Dr Phil is saying to another guest "you shouldn't settle for a loser", the next he is telling this woman that she is too "picky"! Well make up your fucking mind, Dr Phil. Or how about just fuck off altogether because you apparently have no idea what you're talking about.

Second, why is it that when a man is single, it's apparently the woman's fault? She's too "flaky"? So this 47 year old guy hasn't settled down purely because he has dated women who SAY they want to get married but actually DO NOT? In other words, it comes down soley to the woman not wanting to commit? Well that is completely fucked up. How about we take a look at the MAN in this situation and ask HIM what the hell is wrong with him that no woman wants to marry him! Clearly, there must be something wrong with him if he can't find a woman who wants to get married - this world is crawling with women who want a man to put a ring on it! Are you serious! Ok to be fair, it's obviously not just HIS fault. At least he could have acknowledged that his failed relationships were not the result of women's lack of commitment, but were due to issues from both parties and their incompatibilities.

But this kind of representation is typical of Dr Phil. In his eyes, women are the ones who need to change, it's never the men. In his eyes, women are the crazy, irrational ones who need to learn to stop being so picky and listen more to the men in their lives. I almost smashed the TV when Dr Phil was demonising his female guest and in the midst of her defending herself, he interrupted and shut her up with "it seems like you talk a lot and listen very little"!! What a faggot. I'm surprised he didn't follow that line with "...and get back in the kitchen".

What scares me most is not Dr Phil himself, but the fact that he has so many supporters who take his words as gospel. Dr Phil is NOT God. He doesn't know what's best for you simply because he has studied psychology or psychiatry. He has his own biases and value system which have been influenced by his OWN experiences and guess what, YOUR experiences are, and will be, very different. It's all well and good to hear about other people's experiences and we can most definitely learn from them but I believe we should essentially make our own choices based on intelligent decisions, taking into account the fact that the advice we may be receieving may be very biased or coming from a place of ignorance. Once again, it comes back to what I always say - DON'T BE A SHEEP. Go ahead and listen to people like Dr Phil or your family or friends, but listen with intelligence and do not take anyone's words as gospel. I believe in trusting yourself and your own instincts - if that steers you down a path which may seem "wrong" or unfavourable, maybe that is just the journey that you need to go on. I think this blog has gone on a slight tangent...but let me leave you with the one thing that I would like you to take from this:

FUCK DR PHIL.

Thank you and good evening.

I'm Cheap.

Who else here finds immense pleasure in browsing through those trash stores like Cheap as Chips/Reject Shop/Two Dollar Shop?? MEEEEE!! I DOOOO!!! It's so fucking glorious wandering through the aisles and finding a bunch of stuff you never knew you needed, all at the SUPER-glorious price of pretty much nothing! I LOVE IT! It's like everything seems so much more essential and awesome due to it's ridiculous worthlessness, doesn't it? Example:

Eva: "Wow! Sponges that cost a dollar! That's so fucking cool!"
ALSO

Eva: "OMG! A sparkly magic wand! That could be totally useful...for something...in the future..."

OR

Eva: "An eraser for your clothes!! WOAHHHH...that can totally remove stains when I can't be fucked washing my clothes! I may never even have to wash my clothes ever again if I can just find a smell eraser..."

Do you see what I mean? These stores are full of little gems which one could never live without!!! I urge you all to pop into your local "Save-a-Dollar" and check out all the fantastically useless items they have in-store! You won't regret it! The funny thing is, you always end up buying something that you probably wouldn't have otherwise, so how are you "saving a dollar"? You're actually wasting a whole bunch of dollars on shit like cheap candy and pretty smelling hand wash. Hand wash that really only smells good and is utterly crap for actually washing your hands because the manufacturers apparently didn't have an extra dollar to put into adding the stuff that makes it lather. Hmmm. Either way, I still find these shops delightfully entertaining. And I'm sure that at some point in the future I will totally have use for those little loveheart stickers I bought and that furry little headband with ears...

:)

Pure happy.

Thanks to Kid Cudi (kidcudi.com) for this link...This is what the man on the moon himself said about this video:


this is a perfect example of why i do what i do, so people can have fun and vibe out and feel something. a lot of the comments n this youtube post talk about the old man being on some type of drug or whatever, but fuck all that. i know people his age that aint doin shit but watching golf and the grand kids. this dude is my hero and exactly how i wanna be living when im his age, still havin a good time just listening and vibing to great music. still feeling the feeling. go head old homie, you go head

Phally's 30th Heroes & Villains Party!

A selection of pics from the party...HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHALLY :)

Tanty Time gets Political.

Now we all know that I tend to get all ranty about a whole buch of things because you end up reading about it. But I must admit, nothing really shits me as much as CHAUVINISTIC MEN (aka IDIOTS, WANKERS, FUCKWITS, etc). I know what you're thinking - "Here Eva goes for a little ride on her feminist high horse", as if you haven't heard enough from me on this subject already. But I'm sorry, I simply reach the end of my tether when I encounter idiocy. Example: The other night I went to visit Mum and I was sitting quietly, putting together bits and pieces for my Wonder Woman costume (stay tuned for pics!) and every two seconds, another Election ad would appear on the TV. An image of Julia Gillard appears on the screen. Next thing I hear is my Mum's partner yell out, "She's a ginger-haired lesbian!" followed quickly by, "and she's not married and doesn't believe in God so she has no morals!". Now imagine me sitting there - my eyes suddenly burned with fire, my hands and arms started to turn green, I began growing muscles at a rapid rate and my clothes started ripping apart as my body grew into a huge grotesque GREEN MONSTER...RARRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, not really...but yeah, I was angry. Let me just say something OK:

DOUBLE YOO. TEE. EFF.

First, let's just forget your personal opinions about Juila Gillard and your election preferences and let me ask you this: who has the right to judge ANYONE negatively on things like personal appearance, marital status or religious views? Last time I checked, not I nor my Mum's partner could cliam that they knew Juila Gillard personally so how DARE anyone make scathing judgements in such a derogatory manner?! Judging someone on what you THINK you know about them, or making completely unfounded generalisations about someone is plain wrong and totally undeserved.

How does being single and career-orientated suddenly mean you are a lesbian? Only a man as ignorant and macho as my Mum's partner would see someone's choice of relationship status as a rejection of the male species and then take enough offence to warrant his insulting remarks! Please note that I do not think it is insulting to be called a lesbian, rather I find someone's INTENT to insult, insulting. Who really gives a fuck what her sexual preference is...although if you really want to call her a lesbian that would completely contradict Gillard's opposition to same-sex marriages so if you're going to label someone, do your fucking research first.

Now how can you say someone has no morals because they do not believe in God? My mum's partner said, and I quote: "[she] doesn't believe in God so she has no morals". The most important word in this statement is "SO". This little word is what equates 'no morals' with athiesim. Right, so because Julia Gilllard is an athiest, she is probably a murderer, adulterer, thief and all-round bad person? Wow. I truly find it offensive to think that I may be labelled as someone without morals because I choose to disbelieve in God. Personally, I do believe in a god, but I also believe that dinosaurs existed and that we are an evolved species; I do not believe we are descendants of an Adam and Eve. Does that make me a bad person without morals? The answer is, I don't care what you think anyway and I'd be stupid to believe what someone else said that they know about me, or what I should think...the only person who knows me, is me! But I digress. The point is, I feel it is blatantly wrong to accuse someone of having no morals, for ANY reason. No-one has the right to assume they know anything about you based on things like religious beliefs, physical appearance or sexual preference. This blog isn't about pro-Labor or defending Julia Gillard; this blog is about the idiocy of people's thinking and how brainless wankers judge people they don't even know, for no good reason. Frankly I couldn't give a toss about Julia Gillard. If you want to talk about the election, my opinion is that either way we are screwed - we have to choose between two very conservative candidates and I don't agree with a lot of the policies on either side. But no matter how I vote, I know I will base it on the party's political views and their history in successfully governing Australia and NOT on judgements I have made about a candidate's life choices or the colour of their hair.

Shira is the Queen! Check out Sugarfree TV on Youtube

"When you begin to find who you are, you find the TRUTH. And the truth is never confusing, never full of doubt, and never hurtful, because it is what you truly want" - Shira

If you're finding a situation too hard or you have too many unanswered questions, or you feel like you are constantly doubting yourself then what you're dealing with ain't the truth. It's probably bullshit. And you should remove yourself from that situation - ASAP. What do you mean Eva? I mean, when you know yourself and you know what you truly want, there will be no internal questions like: "Why is this happening?" or "Should I do this?" because when you find the truth within yourself, everything makes sense and is natural. Example: relationships. I constantly hear about people's relationship woes (I've had my own too aight) and they usually include worries like "Does he/she like me?" or "Is he/she into having a long-term relationship?" or "Why did he/she do that?". And here's what I've realised. If you have to ask ANY of these questions; if you have any doubt AT ALL, then you're not heading towards the truth. And what I mean by 'truth' is, as Shira put it, "what you truly want". So what I'm saying is, where there is doubt, there is bullshit. Relationships shouldn't be that hard. You shouldn't have to wonder whether that other person likes you or not, or if they're serious, or if they kissed that other person to make you jealous, or what their intentions are...bla bla bla. When something is right, when it's REAL AKA THE TRUTH, shit will be easy. You won't need to wonder about the answers because there will be no questions.

Ok here's a question Eva: when are you gonna stop blogging about all this deep and meaningful shit and get back to your normal, sarcastic, angry self? 

Answer: BRB :P 

Hit up Shira on Youtube http://www.youtube.com/user/SugarFreeTV

ADIDAS HARDLAND (VANQUISH) - Sneaker Releases - Sneaker Freaker Magazine

IN LOVE WITH THESE SHOES...I THINK THEY WOULD SUIT A CERTAIN SOMEONE I KNOW...APART FROM ME, THAT IS ;)

ADIDAS HARDLAND (VANQUISH) - Sneaker Releases - Sneaker Freaker Magazine

WATCH THIS. NOW.

CHECK OUT MY BOY DJ KRONIC!!! THIS VIDEO IS THE SHITTTTTTT HAHAHAHAHA AND VOTE FOR HIM IN THE INTHEMIX TOP 50 COMPETITION...THIS IS ONE GORILLA YOU DO NOT WANNA MESS WIT...Btw, peep the inspiration for this video below - the infamous Cadbury ad...

FFS.

The world has gone fucking crazy. Start thinking for yourselves instead of accepting the shit that people feed you...Just cuz you saw it on the news or you read it in a book or a cop/politician/preacher/teacher/parent/the media tells you something is true, doesn't mean it is! You've got a brain! Fucking use it! Don't be a puppet! Man that means you shouldn't even believe me...find out for yourself. Rant over.

This is what it's all about.

Thank you Andy. If you don't know about this guy, you are fucked.