Things don't make sense...if everything you thought couldn't be lost, is lost, and everything you thought was real turns out to be fake, how can we believe in anything anymore? I'm sick of hearing people saying "you're amazing, you deserve better"...If that was really true, why don't I deserve what I want? Like Brittany Murphy's infamous line from Clueless: "If I'm too good for him, then why aren't i with him?"
I just wanna sleep it all away...because being awake means I am exposed to too many reminders of times and experiences...I feel like I can't wear certain clothes, eat certain foods, go to certain places, without being reminded of him...
It's supposed to be the happiest time of the year...but the Christmas cheer I see everywhere is like a cruel joke. I have turned into the Christmas grinch.
Just tell me when it's over...
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